Last semester I had quite a few ups and downs balancing both modelling and school. Last October I found that I started to lose myself in my creative projects. Photoshoots started to feel a lot more like work than just a hobby, I didn’t feel creative anymore so I decided to take a well-needed break. I remember how scared I was during this period as I got worried that this break would be the end of my creative projects. In reality, I just needed to take some time to reflect on my achievements, rather than continuously pushing myself until I broke.
Last March, I got word that a new local swimsuit company was about to launch called, Strawberry Milk Mob (@strawberrymilkmob). A friend of mine that I had met through Vitae Apparel (@vitaeapparel) was in the promotional shoot for the company featuring their swimwear. The shoot was every girly-girl’s dream, everything was pink, from the backdrop to the milk in the fridge, to even the strawberry detailing on their posts. I just remember scrolling through my feed and hoping that one day I’d have the opportunity to shoot with them too.
Flash forward to this week, I was asked by Luka Vellii (@lukavellii) – a fashion/glamour photographer if I wanted to be part of Strawberry Milk Mob’s promotional video launching this year. In all honesty, he didn’t even need to confirm with me, I would’ve shown up at the drop of a dime.
On Saturday, I showed up on set at 10:30 AM for hair and make-up. I’m used to doing all my own styling for shoots, so whenever others are doing it for me, it makes the experience that much more surreal. I’ve mentioned on many occasions on my blog that I don’t consider myself a “model,” but I think it was a lot of my own insecurities trying to take that title away from myself. I was worried about what others would think of a small town kid trying to make themselves known in a big city, but that’s not why I do what I do. I love modelling and creating because I’ve never felt more like myself whilst doing it. I left a lot of these insecure feelings in 2019, and that’s why I’ve been able to create more authentic work.
The day was a dream come true, the entire crew was so unbelievably nice and fun, as well as the models who were just there to have a great time. I’ve never been on a company shoot like this before- where everyone was highly professional but at the same time, ready to just have a good time. The promotional video was shot as if we were behind the scenes of a photoshoot, so we were told to literally let our hair down and have a great time which is exactly what we did! We were served mimosas and champagne throughout the entire shoot, from 11 am – 3 pm. I can’t even explain the feelings I felt in that large group of empowering women of all different shapes, sizes and skin colours being treated like we were the most important people in that room. For the last part of the shoot we all got our own feature, choosing different props! I did two features- one with strawberry champagne and one with a double scoop of strawberry ice cream!
This was such a moment I got to share with myself and others as I remember myself nearly a year ago scrolling through my Instagram feed wishing that I had the opportunity to work with this company, and there I was on set licking a strawberry ice cream cone part of the strawbaby family. I don’t experience many moments like this in life, where I physically need to sit down and reflect, but after this shoot I had to. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this happy with myself, everyday I wake up excited to live the day ahead of me, bumps in the road don’t bother me anyone because I’m proud of what I do, and I focus on myself which has led me to my own success. In January alone, I worked on 8 different shoots and shot 7 videos for Youtube, and still managed to stay ahead in my studies. Last January I was spinning my wheels, wishing I had this life.
I really did make my dream my reality, and you can too. Don’t sit there any longer wishing, go out there and achieve.